I officially have three days left at home before I head to Phoenix. Talk about nerves. I'm excited, overall. It's just weird to be doing these "final goodbye" things. Particularly yesterday, when I went up to Cleveland to pick up some last pieces of furniture.
Turns out that it was a bad day to do so, as my housemates were all occupied with work or family matters. Walking up the stairs to my empty room was really bizarre. I just stood there for a while, looking at where I had lived my life for the past four years. Thinking about snow ball fights that spilled from campus into our yard, parties that were legendary, rolling all around the second floor in our desk chairs, sitting around in our underwear because we were just that comfortable with each other, armies of bouncy balls, endless conversation, times when it felt like my work would consume me but knowing it'd all be okay as we crammed eight chairs into our little kitchen and just talked and laughed. I will miss that security terribly. That support system. It was really unbeatable. Those girls (+ Zach + Phil + Tom) would seriously do anything for me. We'd all do anything for each other. I'm getting sappy, but seriously. Those friendships are so valuable to me. It was so odd driving away from that.
In any case, Tom came over to kick it with me for a while, and we talked for a few hours, about everything from family issues to torture memos to the joy of complete culture shock. I hope I will find such friends in Phoenix...I know I will. But still. Transitions...so weird.
I've been doing the facebook/e-mail getting-to-know you thing with a few TFA kids that'll be in Phoenix, though. A couple girls from Ohio, a couple girls that'll be doing ECE. So that's pretty neat. I already have plans to get apps and drinks with a group this Saturday, and we're going bar hopping the night before induction starts. That's a good sign!
It will all be fine. I think it's just the mix of emotions (sadness, excitement, anxiousness) are just feeling a little overwhelming right now. I need to find a zen state. Maybe I'm due for some yoga later. Sun Salutation A/B, here I come.
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I freaking love you. So much.
ReplyDeleteAnnie, this post made me tear up a bit. I'm so, so sorry that I wasn't there on Sunday. Maybe it would have made it harder? I don't know. But I'm glad Tom was here.
ReplyDeleteYou picked some of my favorite memories. You said it best when you talked about the support system. That system doesn't stop here. It may be in a different form (blogs, phone calls, Skype)...but in any case, it's bigger than it was before! It's going international!
Now to leave you with this: You know at the top of your blogger screen, there's a button that says "next blog"? Well I hit it after viewing my own blog. And it took me to this one. http://windsorshelties.blogspot.com/
Fate? I think so. Love you :)